cheer up emo kid.

ever_s0_sweett @ 2004-12-06T11:49:00

2004-12-06T16:51:14Z

new journal <------ click that** ♥

i'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.

2004-12-05T17:38:16Z

there's something about today,
maybe it's teh bare trees outside my window,
or my bright red nose,
of the goosbumps on my arm,
or the fact that i think i'm becoming rather hated,
or maybe there's nothing behind it.
maybe it's just one of THOSE days..
or maybe it's NOT.

good lord i hate DRAMA.
i hate to be so cliche.. but what happened to the good old days where no one hated anyone,
and everyone was friends with everyone...
i miss the years where you had to invite everyone in your class to your birthday party.

for the most part last night was fun.
kissa and i almost pissed our pants like 9 times.
i danced to the drama summer, and she "performed",
donny gave me some guy advuice "don't drool contest, spit game."
because there was an incident with a boy and some cookies.
and we sat on the counter pretending to drink tea when donny's girl came over,
then kissa and i played emo games 1 and 2 while eating taquitos in between.

then this morning i went to deanie's hockey game
and shaant got all intense sitting alone in the corner to get a good angle on the game..
and now i'm just here.

oh and yesterday donny was talking about how someone had an indoor pool,
and then my dad goes.
"If we had an indoor pool we'd all be in the olympics."
it was the weirdest comment ever.

and i've honestly just written one of thoselong entries i promised i'd never write.
if you're pissed that i'm taking up your friendspage just comment.

xox deanna.

pretty eventful night.

2004-12-04T03:15:34Z

holy lord.
i feel so JSAIULSDHAUIDH right now.
i can't hang out with emily elise cloutier anymore..
and probably not rachel, or claire, or brittni, or austin, or trevor,or ARAL..
or any of them from transit..
except maybe Mikey... they love Mikey.
it's too long of a story.
basically i got caught at the transit dance,
em's mom flipped.
apparently i'm a "bad influence"
so em and i can't hang out anymore.

ell. even if we can't hang out know i'm always gunna care. DFL. Fingers Xed and Glued.
and whenever you're having a crappy day just know
wvwn though i can't walk to your house, i'm always there with you.
♥ love always mar.

♥
i just wanna SCREAM
deanna marie arthur

I WANA BE INN0CENT AGAIN..

2004-12-03T02:46:04Z

i'm eating ragu express it's rather good.
i finished my english story.
it's ratehr gay,
it's about this guy named talon and this girl named rae,
and rae wants to be a ballerina,
and all this crap about secrets,
and rae falls off a cliff into a lake.
it's rather sad but cute.
i guess.

just for the record. karissa ann whiting is my best best friend ever.
i really really love best friends.
especially friends like kissa who give good hugs like they really really care.
and haley cause even though she can be very retarted i love our stupid girl chats on the phone,
and cokie cause we play with all my little brother's toys,
and ariel because she is just so giggly and bubbly all the time,
and emily cause um she's emily,
and munnz cause she's adorable and never ever mean and does bitchin messy buns
and jules cause she's a bitch and i hate ehr but i love ehr and she thinks she's hotter than me.

♥
deanna marie

cancer is the prrof.. we will be going no where soon.

2004-11-30T00:05:20Z

wendy's is so good.

saosin makes me want to rip my ears off.
i don't even know what it is about them.
i just know i don't like it.
but of course on the ride to school we had to listen to a saosin mix..
sometimes i hate driving with donny.

just for the record "something Vague" by bright eyes is the most beautiful song i've heard lately,
it's one of those songs that makes you just wanna lay out in the snow,
looking up at the stars and snowflakes..
and just cry.

jules makes me smile.
ch0ke0nfalsel0ve: just ebcause now that im hotter than you, dosnt mean you have to be miss-i-dont-like-you-ill-have-pms

i'm having one of those days.
one that just maks me so content.
i liked my outfit today,
i ate wendy's,
i listened to two of the loveliest songs i've heard in a while,
i watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind,
i read some of "perks".
today was just so
calm

♥
love always deanna marie

ever_s0_sweett @ 2004-11-29T14:31:00

2004-11-29T22:33:42Z

"Once upon a time, in a far away land,
a young prince lived in a shining castle.
Although he had everything his heart desired,
the prince was spoiled, selfish, and unkind.
But then, one winter's night,
an old beggar woman came to the castle and offered him a single rose in return for shelter from the bitter cold.
Repulsed by her haggard appearance, the prince sneered at the gift and turned the old woman away.
But she warned him not to be deceived by appearances, for beauty is found within.
And when he dismissed her again, the old woman's ugliness melted away to reveal a beautiful enchantress.
The prince tried to apologize, but it was too late,
for she had seen that there was no love in his heart.
And as punishment she transformed him into a hideous beast
and placed a powerful spell on the castle and all who lived there.
Ashamed of his monstrous form, the beast concealed himself inside his castle,
with a magic mirror as his only window to the outside world.
The rose she had offered was truly an enchanted rose which would bloom until his 21st year.
If he could learn to love another and earn their love in return by the time the last petal fell,
then the spell would be broken.
If not, he would be doomed to remain a beast for all time.
As the years passed he fell into despair and lost all hope.
For who could ever learn to love a beast?"
♥
Beauty and The Beast

love always deanna marie

I'm saving a story that won't bein til you're there...

2004-11-28T21:51:12Z

it's a cold.
rainy.
sunday.
ick.
school tommorrow.
i have to take the history quiz again..
i'm gunna fail..
again.

i ♥ punchline.

today was such a blah day.
i got a new monitor so i went on my computer for a while,
i listened to all my old music,
and read all my old saved convos ((i'm a dork)),
and looked at all my old pictures.
it was fun.
but there was no internet so now i'm back on this thing.
woohoo

just for the sake of jules i'm gunna promote. woohoo

_emoboys

it's currently nto active like at all but if you joined i would love you.
a lot.
and the guy in the pic is my bro... just for the record.

eh i'm out
payce

♥
love always deanna marie

ever_s0_sweett @ 2004-11-27T23:44:00

2004-11-28T04:45:45Z

he luvs me

5 bucks says that means you're like a little sister to me.

you are the smell before rain... you are the blood in my veins

2004-11-28T03:47:39Z

being all alone and thinking about the boy who broke my heart leads to making candy bracelets..

and lots and lots of sherbet ((my comfort food))..

♥
love always deanna marie

the only way to a man's heart is through his stomach.

2004-11-28T01:50:37Z

my mom is making me bake him cookies.
she thinks it'll win him over.
so tommorrow i'm baking cookies for the boy of my dreams.
he is gunna think i'm so queer.
oh well i love him so much.

i ♥ drawing broken hearts.
hm i'm such a dork.

mkay so today while rereading part of "perks".
i realized how my romantic situation is quite like charlie's.
he got the girl in the end...
but then again isn't that always the case in fictional stories..
because fiction is fake. made-up. not real.

there's no perfect endings..

today i wrote my perfect ending.
i really wish i had a type writer..
it would seem quite lovely writing my perfect ending on a type writer.

Deanna lay on her bed staring at the blankness of her stark white ceiling. Looking up at the nothingness, like the nothingness in her heart without him there. He was never there though, never ever. It was just the first time she realized the nothingness without him, maybe it was because she knew he would never be there. Her throat was dry. and her cheeks were damp; She was nothing but a contradiction within herself. She wanted him in her life so bad, but ta the same time she wished she had never met him. The silence engulfing her was interrupted by a tapping in the distance. She scrounged up her strength to look out the window and see what was going on. It was him. He was there, on her lawn, outside her window. Standing in the snow. She cracked open her window. "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME??" He just laughed, "I'll only tell you if you let me inside." She considered just shutting her window and going back to the nothingness, but his smile was just to much to resist. She went downstairs and opened the door. Instead of coming inside he just pulled her out into the freezing snow and shut the door behind her. "Why did you just do that? I'm in boxers and a tank top and now that door is locked." She was shivering, half from the cold surrounding her, but the other half from pure excitement of seeing him. "so what do you want from me?" He looked her right in the eyes wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close. "All I want is you." The whisper in her ear tickled her ear drum, and a shiver shook through her whole body. Then he kissed her, and she didn't care that it was 20 degrees and she was half naked, or that the door was locked and no one else was home, or even that he was wearing those stupid fingerless gloves that she resented and loved at the same time. At that moment all that she cared about was him, and her perfect ending.

love always deanna marie

ALL I WANNA D0 IS GIVE UP ALL I HAVE T0 BE WITH Y0U....

2004-11-27T17:18:07Z

i truly am just so crazy about him,
and his brown eyes,
and his goofy "emo" hair.
and his obsession with wanting to be "scene"..
and his hoodie with a track jacket over it,
and his gloves iwth the fingers cut off...usually i'd cringe at those stupid gloves.
but on him they were quite adorable..
his ex-girlfriend was there. hot damn i'm jealous of her.
hot damn.
i really know no one cares.
and i really no i have no chance.
and i really really know aral will probably read this..((sorrry))
and i know that he will probably read this to.

you, you want nothing to do with me. and i, i don't know what to do with you. cause you, you don't know what you do to me.

♥
love always deanna marie

<333

2004-11-26T04:37:44Z

3 stupid pictures.
1 place.
thinking about 1 stupid boy.

love deanna marie.

just for molls..

2004-11-26T03:50:30Z

waiting
waiting for you to call is like waiting for it to snow in july,
or like sitting in the middle of a desert waiting for rain,
and the silence in the air, and the dial tone from the reciever,
is driving me slowly insane.
i'd call you and hang up just to hear your voice,
but that seems a little cliche,
and my fingers are twitching wishing to dial your digits,
because you said you's call monday, and now it's friday.
It feels like an add attack is rushing over my body,
You would be the perfect ritalin,
And i'm pacing around pulling out my hair,
i've circled 10 times around my kitchen.
I guess i'll just sit here and stare at the phone,
And wait for your voice on the other line,
Just the sound of your breath traveling miles to my ear drums,
Would make te millions of minutes i've had to wait seem just fine.

love deanna marie

consider me weak like the week after the christmas <333

2004-11-25T19:01:27Z

i love the food aspect of Thanksgiving,
hate the family aspect.
this year should be better than last year though,
we had a pretty shaky time last year..
eh i guess having to wear a gay outfit isn't that bad.

ugh this antibacterial soap makes my nose sting like a bitch.

donny is wearing spandex.
weird.

i have a crush.
on a boy.
ha i'm such a dorkwad.

last night cokie slept over.
we played with all of deanie's cool games.
i wish i were a little boy haha.
and then for a while she read the perks of being a wallflower.
hot damn that book makes me smile.

*it snowed*

happy turkey day.

love always deanna marie.

he imed me...

2004-11-25T00:16:21Z

wow i was just about to go on and on about he never talks to me,
he doesn't like me,
he doesn't care..
and then the stupid ass goes and ims me..
blargh.
and now there's just so much going through my head that i can barely think sraight..
let alone write well.
but now i'm realizing how much he is so distant from my life lately...
but good lord he made me smile.

i hate the way he makes my whole world turn upside down
i know he doesn't mean to but he puts me on an effin' roller coaster,
everyone else is just a boring sideshow attraction,
but your the main event.
and i know my writing sucks,
but i'll write forever all about you..
because it seems like i really have to.
i wanna black out these butterflies in my stomach,
and white out your name on my heart.
would it hurt you to make it easy for me to let go?
because holding on to this is killing me.
just when i think i've distanced my self from you,
you go and bridge the gap.
all i want is to have you close, but i need you far far away

love always deanna marie

oh oh new additions to the mugshot hall of fame..

2004-11-24T04:30:44Z

what an effin' hottie.
note: what a beaver hat.

what a fugly guy..

love always deanna marie

9 chances to drown ourselves in black hair dye

2004-11-23T01:29:58Z

i really can't wait for chinese food and seeing the increidbles with cokie and lena.
they rock.
all hot boys love Halo 2, and the movie grind.
it's true.
i decided that today.
boys should like dr.pepper, 80's movies, ninja turtles and the perks of being a wallflower.
oh and wrting letters and making mix tapes.
i want a lovely boy who fits the standards set above.

i didn't get yelled at for my nose yet.
woohoo.

i went to yiayia's wake..
papou ((spelling?)) looked so sad,
it made me sad.
cokie was sad to,
that made me sadder.
everyone was so tall and intimidating,
and cokie didnt know half the people who knew here.
she really cracks me up.

tommorrow is a dress down day,
the fifthies got shirts made that say "The few, The proud, The fifthies."
they are rather ridiculous..
poor kids are gunna get ridiculed.

my life seems so boring lately,
lately all i wanna do is reread The Perks of Being A Wallflower,
and fall in love.
i really really wanna fall in love,
winter always leaves me wanting attachment,
it truly is such a lonely lonely time,
but falling in love in winter is truly perfect,
there's snow and cocoa and gingerbread men, and candy canes..
purely romantic in every way..

i have rambled so much in this entry,
but we all need to ramble every once in a while.
so leave me a comment and just ramble on baout anything

love deanna marie

p.s. i miss gracie poo compton ass terry marlette..
L FoR LoVE 11: ooo deanna when u called and liza was like 'it was deanna' i was like 'oooo iv missed these days when shed call:-)

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.

2004-11-22T02:30:14Z

the perks of being a wallflower is the loveliest book i have ever read.
i'm almost done and tommorrow i plan on reading it for a second time,
and then a third,
and sooner or later a 4th, 5th and 6th.
books like this make me wanna write,
and think,
and live.
and i just felt the need to share that all with you.

There's nothing like the deep breaths after laughing that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons. It was that great.

you should buy me a type writer for xmas

all i wanna do is fall in love..

2004-11-21T05:58:14Z

all i want right now is a boyfriend.
and not a crappy.
hey i'm gunna put your name in my profile and we can talk sometimes boyfriend..

i wanna boy who will dance in the rain with me,
i wanna boy who will let me borrow all of his clothes and tell me i look adorable in his way to big shirts,
i wanna boy who will just lay in the middle of the street staring att he sky with me,
i wanna boy to go bowling with me, and laugh when i don't hit a single pin,
i wanna boy who steals my jeans,
i wanna boy who tells me i'm beautiful,
i wanna boy who buys me a pink rose just cause he knows it's my favorite,
i wanna boy who watches ninja turtles and power rangers with me,
i wanna boy who makes easy mac with me,
i wanna boy who makes me mix cds for stupid reasons, like "the happy earth day mix",
i wanna boy who knows how to wink,
i wanna boy who writes me letters, because there is nothing i love more than getting stuff in the mail,
i wanna boy who steals bowling shoes just so he can match me,
i wanna boy who throws rocks at my window, just because it's so perfect and classic,
i wanna boy who knows all the words to the postal service songs and will sing "such great heights" with me,
i wanna boy who will just lay on the couch with me watching stupid movies from the 80's,
i wanna boy who will fall in love with me, and i would fall right back <33

leave me a comment if you're that boy.

i got pierced!!

2004-11-20T20:36:22Z

i finally got my nose pierced!
so happy.
i have to write a letter to my school explaining why i should be allowed to keep it though..
facial piercing in the middle school is against the dress code,
god damn.
it looks cute though..
they better not make me take it out..
hm ok enough talk.
here's the result of an old man with a speech problem and a candian accent sticking a needle through my nose

love always deanna marie <333

Strawberry Milkshakes and Haley Gossip.

2004-11-19T03:06:33Z

"YEA Y0U HEARD ME HALEY Y0U'RE ALM0ST AS COOL AS DEANNA"
hahah apparently i'm so so cool
</canter>

moving on.....

you're the 4 tubs of raibow sherbet i devoured, along iwth my self confidence.. you're all the tears that pricked the back of my eyes, that i never cried cause i just wanted to smile and be fucking pretty for you. you're all the hateful words choked up in the back of my throat that i wish i could scream at you.
you're all the stupid metaphors in my livejournal that aren't that clever anyways

love always deanna marie

OMG KAIT MADE MY NIGHT
iSnOwBoArD182: i deicded u look like summer form the oc

SCIENCE BLOWS

2004-11-17T01:33:56Z

it has been over an hour.
and i'm still stalling on my damn science homework.
it's making me HATE water.

but the concept of surface tension made me poetical.
and i thought of a decent line for a good non-existent poem.

Rolling down my eyelashes, and splashing down my cheeks, Is a perfect example of surface tension, that you created just for me..

surface tension makes me think of tears.
but then again i'm a dork.
and i looove HIP BONES.

tommorrow is the B.N.O. show
that should be fun.

Oh lordy.
Conor Oberst makes me beyond wet.

for christmas you should buy me bright eyes cds.
i don't care which ones
just buy me or burn me one.

<33 deanna marie

MIDNIGHT B0WLING WITH SEXY BABES

2004-11-15T02:46:28Z

highlight of my weekend
BOWLING.

first at mi casa we did mugshots.

stoner munnz

pimpin' kissa

deanna whore

then we ventured to transit lanes..

kissa's a sk8er gal!!

munnz gt a strike

the disgusting mutant cheese fries

munnz totally slamming kissa at air hockey

kissa getting slammed

munnz eating a cheese frie

kissa handles big balls

random girl scout cookie box...

donny contemplates "hygiene"

deanna handles big balls reeeal well

our HOT HOT bowling shoes.

i finally stole bowling shoes..

global warming is bull shit...

2004-11-13T05:37:10Z
if global warming existed it wouldn't snow in november.
nuff said.
<33

<333

2004-11-11T17:32:27Z
Dear Boy That's Always On My Mind,

you're the words to that song that i loved for months that i just wanna get out my head,
you're the way that snow dances so beautifully from the sky and melts on impact when it hits the ground,
you're the store that doesn't have that new cd that just came out that i've been dying for months to have.
you're the big fat C on that paper that I was convinced would get an A+.
you're the weak season premier of my favorite show that hasn't been on in months.
you're those cute jeans i ordered months ago that were on backorder so long i don't fit in them.
you're the new cd from my favorite band with weak lyrics and shitty vocals.
you're the half melted twix bar at the bottom of my bag of halloween candy ((twix are my favorite)).
you're that movie that looked amazing in the previews but totally bombed.

you're nothing but a dissapointment <3333

love always,
deanna marie arthur